-Waiting and Believing-

note to learning anew person

prologue of your destiny andnow

TVXQ • Tohoshinki • Dong Bang Shin Ki
Kim Junsu; Park Yoochun; Kim Jaejoong; Shim Changmin; Jung Yunho;
Adilla Latifa Adisti a.k.a adis • visage • pooh
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a girl who is grown up more than her age. i love KPOP and JPOP as you can see. wonder why? i found more comfort while listening to their song. i love making new friends, but i hate liar and betrayer. you can't say that i'm a patient person. i am moody and get mad easily. i don't like to lost, and being underestimated. this blog will be filled with my craziness over KPOP and JPOP and also my personal life. i think there will be some post both in indonesian and english. you might see how crybaby and pitiful i am, but i will never give up, as long as tomorrow comes! I like photoshopping, though i don't have any skills on that~ just to train my right brain! i also like writing and reading fanfic~ can't live without internet more than a week XD. and lasr, maybe i would love my laptop, more than my boyfriend~! >.<

the first time i heard korean song, was happiness remake by Super Junior. from that, i fall head over heels toward them. that's the firs time i become so rebel. truthfully, all my elementary time i spent with studying. that's the first time i love anything else beside math . ofcourse the road isn't that easy for me. i have to gone through all the insult i received from my friends and also my mom who disagree my addicion. super junior has become my addiction, at first i have difficulties to recognize all their faces. but, as time pass, now i can differentiate all their voices on songs~ in haengbok MV, i can't take my eyes off from Park Jung Soo a.k.a Lee Teuk. at first, there's someone who like super junior too, we will talk about many things, and laugh together. but, as time pass, she seems more interested in dating or something. she even told me that she isn't interested anymore. it broke my heart, and until this day, i still not have forgive her. i decided to keep loving them, even it means i have to be a loner. i love super junior as well as all their sub-group~ my fave is super juniot T though, i love their idol show so much! and the drama! it's just too much for me! XD

at grade 6th i meet TVXQ, their songs are a miracle to me. i don't know that just 5 persons can make a word into a beautiful harmony. they also have strong bond between them. after i watched their first drama, dangerous love. i fall in love with Yun-Jae couple. it's consist of 2 members, they are Jung Yunho and Kim Jaejoong. the colors of my life increase by one. maybe many people think it's disgusting or horrifying. but, i didn't see that at all. all i can see, is a pure love between them. although i know, that their road will not be easy, but as long as they have each other, i'm sure they will overcome it somehow.

i also like big bang. their ability to write a song is wonderful! my fav song is sunset glow. it's remind me of someone too much. my fave is Seung ri
for shinee, i love their innocent image. and as a grown-up at romeo . my fave is Choi Minho
for CSJH or The Grace, i love their song, dance, and members! they are so talented and sing really well~ my fave is Stephanie
for kara, i like their cuteness. they do not act bitchy, and keep their "virgin" image well. my fave is Nicole

that's all you have to know about me. i hope we can befriend! don't forget to leave me something at my shout-box~

Sabtu, 28 November 2009, 07:37

No Words Needed

No words needed

Yunho menengadahkan kepalanya ke jendela van mwreka. Langit pun tampak tak bersahabat seperti suasana sendu di dalam mobil van tersebut. Semua diam tanpa kata, hanya terdengar suara desahan nafas.

Disampingku, duduklah changmin yang tertidur dengan menggunakan earphonenya. Disamping Changmin, manager-hyung sedang membolak-balik sebuah dokumen di dalam map berwarna ungu.

Aku benar-benar tidak menyangka kalau mereka bisa sekeji sampai melarang kita berbicara satu sama lain. Ini adalah salah satu dari peraturan menjijikkan lain yang harus kuturuti. Aku merasa sangat bersalah karena setuju dengan kondisi ini, tapi siapa yang tidak, kalau setiap hari kamu diancam bahwa jika tidak patuh, kekasih mu satu-satunya yang akan menerima balasannya?

Aku menendang-nendang sekumpulan barang di kakiku, ingin sekali rasanya aku berteriak mencaci maki diriku sendiri atas ketidakberdayaanku dalam semua ini. Tanpa kusadari setetes, dua tetes air mata telah sampai di pelupuk mataku. Segera kuseka sebelum manager-hyung tau dan membuat rusuh.

BBBZZZ BBBZZZ

Aku terlonjak di kursiku. Kami tidak biasa mendapat telfon atau SMS karena seringnya berganti nomor. Dan celakanya manager-hyung juga merasakan getaran lemah penuh kesedihan itu.

“Siapa itu Yunho? Lebih baik bukan dari 3 member lain yang berada di van lain. Kalian tau kan konsekuensinya apa!” nada lelah dan sebal menghiasi suaranya.

Memang CEO busuk itu telah menyuruh *lebih tepatnya mengancam* para manager kami untuk mengawasi interaksi diantara kami.

Aku mengecek dan kulihat, nama Kim Heechul <3>

“Bukan hyung, hanya Heechul-hyung. Aku masih boleh kan berbiacara dengan mereka?” sindirku kejam. Aku benar-benar tidak ingin mendengar ceramah dia lagi hari ini.

Manager-hyung memandakngku sinis, lalu melanjutkan membaca dokumen-dokumen ditangannya. Aku menghembuskan nafas kesal, selalu saja mencampuri urusan pribadi artisnya, itulah managementku. Kutekan layar touchscreen anycall ku, dan isi pesan itu adalah sesuatu yang benar-benar tak kusangka.

How are you my cutie-pie Yunho? Good as always? Bright as always?
I always pray for your smile to keep shining my glomy day.
So, don’t dissapoint me and keep smiling ne? ^__^

Firstly, I know it’s been hard for us, and especially for both of us.

I know you’re really sad cause you can’t practice your dance, jogging and playing together with Su again.

I know you’re really sad cause you can’t talk to Chunnie, sharing both of your mind like you did before, and can’t make silly songs with him again.

I know you’ve been growing more and more and more worried about our love, our bond, our connection. Believe me aegi-yah, there’s nothing that I want to do the most except to hug you tightly, to kiss you dearly, and to hold you like there’s no tomorrow.

Pandanganku kabur, karena air mata yang dears mengalir dari pipiku, untung saja manager-hyung sudah tertidur. Sepertinya dokumen-dokumen itu bukan hal yang menarik lagi untuk dilihat. Tanpa disadari pesan yang setengah jalan kubaca ini mengingatkan akan semua kenangan kita.

It’s very, very selfish, I know it but, Yunnie-ah, I want to you keep waiting for me, keep waiting for our love. I know you’re tired because all of this, all of this shit that SM has brought to us, but believe me there must be a happy end for both of us.

Now we live, on different dorms and got no chance to speak anymore. It’s human right to talk to each other, but I guess SM has broken another rules by telling us to not talk to each other. This could be an additional to the charges, Yunnie-ah ^^ so don’t worry OK? We’ll overcome it like we always did ^^

Lastly, tell Min that I miss him so much. He’s our baby afterall. Tell him that I’ll cook his favorite meal again after all of this done. But I bet my cooking would be so tasty because of all the tears which is pouring out from my heart..

And for my beloved Yunho, I love you, I love you so much, I love you even more than your parents, you’re my everything, you’re my light on the night, you’re my only love. So please, do not give up and please be strong. There will come times when I’ll be holding your waist tightly again while kissing your soft hair, so please wait for us ne?

You’re one and only Kim Jaejoong.

P,S this is really hee-hyung cell phone, so, from right now we can talk more often and hopefully don’t get caught ^__^

Tanpa kusadari nafasku tercekat dan air mataku membasahi kaos oblong yang kukenakan. Aku merindukan dia, hidupku, cahayaku, segalanya bagiku. Jaejoong, Kim Jaejoong, sudah 1 minggu lebih aku tidak berbicara dengan dia, dan itu sakit, menyakitkan sekali. Kudekap handphone itu ke dadaku, sambil membayangkan dialah yang kupeluk, dan bukan mesin kecil ini.

I will jae, I will. Our love won’t end just like this. We still have a whole new future together after all of this done. Saranghae.. yongwhonhi Kim Jaejoong.

Label: fandom, fanfic

Kamis, 26 November 2009, 06:24

091126 Stand By U + Talk - Best Hits 2009

Credits: DNBN + Haruka
Shared By : DBSKnights

they finally perform something as 5 :'D

i'm si happy to have them back. walopun banyak cassie, yg sik overakting, bilang klo ada gap antara jae sama min pas beridiri, udah deh, ga usah pesimis gitu, ada jg yang bilang klo mreka nyanyi ga pake hati. WTF? yoochun sampe improvisasi keren banget gitu, apa namanya klo dia ga overflowing emotion? they did flawless. i'm so proud of them ^^ although it's so short, i'm glad to see them fine ><>

_ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH_

Label: fandom

Sabtu, 21 November 2009, 07:48

JAECHUNSU AT MAMA 2009

OMG! IYAH ITU JAECHUNSU, NGGA KOK NGGA MIMPI T_____t

jadi critanya saya baru pulang nonton 2012 yang jam 6.30-9.30, sbnernya gue udah tau klo hari ini bakalan ada MAMA yg ada di V channel, tp i swear ga bakal nonton itu klo ga pastiin ada dbsk disana apa ngga, sbnernya gue berdoa trus ada keajaiban tiba2 mreka dateng nyanyi mirotic ><

dan guess what? ternyata yang dateng adalah jaechunsu. and one thing also is

DBSK WINS BEST REPRESENTATIVE FOR ASIA

i'm so touched that even they are not active for such a long time, they still can mantain their charisma, and also another reason, i'm happy that 2PM get the best male :D
i can't bear to watch SHINEee, Big Bang, or SS501 to receive that award XD

so, then JAECHUNSU went to the stage and said their speech. gue ga sadar betapa gue kangennya liat junsu. i'm missing junsu so fucking much D; and chun being the good talker, made me cry. kata2 dia yang ngomong klo mreka bkal berusaha supaya dbsk bkn hanya asia, tp all over the world, seakan ngejanjiin klo mreka bakal terus breng ^^dan jaejoong awal2nya i have no idea dia ngomong apa, tearkhir2nya dia ngomong saranghae tapii kyaaaaaaa~

BUT THEN, THAT SMSHIT bilang klo jaechunsu ga pantes nerima trophhy itu, klo mau harusnya diwakilin sama sm, ga dikasiin ke mreka ber3. WTF WOY, YANG NYANYI, NGEDANCE ITU MREKA, BUKAN LO. TOLOL! untung MNET yg pinter, bilang klo jaechunsu jg ngomong kok sma homin and homin nya fine fine ajah! MAKAN TUH!
enough with SMSHIT. i don't want them to ruin my bright day

it's really jaechunsu everyone *shed tears*

Label: fandom

Rabu, 18 November 2009, 08:03

blakangan ini saya hobi banget dengerin lagu ini :D

yiruma itu adalah komposer korea yang albumnya juga release di jepang

basically, ini instrumental piano, ngga ada lagunya, tp mungkin gue hobi soalnya gue emang lagi butuh banget bisa dngerin yg gini. oh ya, ini jg lagu yg banget banget disukain sma junsu. melodinya emang indah, nenangin hati pula :D pngen deh bisa maenin piano nyaaa XD

Label: fandom

, 07:17

rumet

*sigh* kyknya ga bosen bosen yeh masalah dateng, i know it makes life more interesting, but sometimes it's just too much ><>

gue jg tau, jadi org yg berkeluh kesah mulu itu ngga baik. tp boleh kan sekali-kali nangisin semua masalah yang ada? mungkin gue feel much better klo udah numpahin semua.

1. real family

gue tau nyokap gue pngen gue menang lomba itu, walopun ga bilang terus terang, dan gue pun harus blajar keras buat dapetin itu, berjam jam gue harus les matematika, dan skarang gue bisa dapet juara 3, which is pling bgus di skolah gue. tp gue ga kuat klo harus juga di sruh rangking 1 angkatan, gue tau nyokap gue pasti bkal ngomel lagi klo gue ga bisa ngeachieve itu, mungkin pas klas 7 gue bisa dapet itu, tp klas 8 ini gue pesimis sang

at, waktu blajar gue kesita buat blajar olimpiade yang ngga gampang juga, gue pasrah deh ntar gue rangking brapa seangkatan T___T gue berharap aja nyokap ga bkal terlalu marahin gue, dan ga nyalahin dong bang shin ki atas kegagalan gue :'(

2.real friends

first, it was rona. kita smua bingung knp rona berubah tingkah lakunya, jrang lg ngobrol dan kdang suka sendirian, ga mau gabung, dan blakangn ini nambah jutek. gue jg tadinya bingung, heran plus sbel jg, eh trnyata itu semua cmn salah salah sangka dan semua itu ngga bner, ^^ ada satu masalah lagi, dibikin dorama bisa kali nih -___- panjang bgt critanya, dan gue ga mau bahas, karena gue ga mau memihak, pasti kliatan gue biased kmn klo gue crita ntar XD

3.real friend (plurk)

plurk skarang udah sepi. which is gue agree. mungkin salah satu reaasonnya, karna ga ada lagi yg bisa kita spazz, ngga kyk dulu, di tngah isu kyk gini, gue aja bka plurk kadang ga kuat, nginget dbdsk yg dulu masih ketawa ketawa TT^TT. ada satu masalah lain jg yg gue kira bkal sejauh ini jadinya masalahnya, i just hope everything would be alright in the end :D

4.love-life

sbnernya diatas semuanya ini yg pling bkin gue super bete brat. gue tau dia udah ga peduli lagi, fine. tp begonya gue masa sampe detik ini jg gue masih suka? jelas jelas dia udah ga peduli, ngasih tau dia pulang aja ngga, dan gue disini masih berharap? please deh dis, don't be such an idiot, udah brapa kali sih gue dibilangin gtu sma orang te

rdekat gue, tp gue tetep ngotot aja. otak gue udah bilang buat berhenti tp hati gue tetep ga bisa dngerin T__T mungkin ntar ada suatu saat gue bisa ngelupain dia.. dan satu hal yg pasti, gue tau klo saat it NGGA dket-deket skarang ^;__;^

5.fandom

the legal dispute is becoming worse and worse *sigh* gue cmn pngen bilang klo gue percaya sama mreka semua, gue ga nyalahin yunho sma changmin atas tanda tangan mreka di dokumen itu, gue percaya klo mreka bkal terus bersama, klo ngga bisa bareng di sm, gue percaya klo mreka bkal terus bareng. gmn pun caranya. gue tau gue kedengerennya muluk, dan kata kata bahwa sm itu bakal sayang klo ngelepas dbsk itu bullshit di

telinga gue klo nginget gmn hot ama shinwa yg juga sangat tenar, tp dengan gampangnya disband gtu aja. gue cmn berharap klo sm berhenti bkin alesan palsu, dan ga macem macem dalam kasus ini. gue bener bener pengen mreka nyanyi bareng di atas panggung korea lagi, dnger lagu korea mreka di ipod gue kadang bkin hati gue nyeri, sakit banget rasanya, gue terus berusaha yakinin hati gue klo mreka bakal baik baik aja, because they are my precious tvxq after all ^^

~* ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH *~

music : Kiss the Rain - Yiruma

Label: diary, fandom

Selasa, 15 September 2009, 06:12

-heartache-

you're my heart-heart-heart breaker - G-Dragon.

haaaaaaah. flood lgi kan gue. dan sekali lagi ini kebalikannya post sebelomnya. asli gue kangen banget, tp ternyata gue ga dianggep yah. enak banget yah, dia bisa senyum ama lo, foto sama adek lo. tau gini i wish i have never meet you in the first time, so we can start as a friend. how fooool! until this time i still love you. agh, like there's no one except you ;_; gue liat lo dalam foto sejelek apapun mungkin juga gue bkal masih suka terus. coba segampang itu ngilanginnya, sayangnya enggak. god, please help me ease the pain i beg you. T____T

Label: diary

Senin, 14 September 2009, 05:31

SUPER JUNIOR M-SUPER GIRL

SUPER JUNIOR M- SUPER GIRL

OMG i don't know what to say. it's totally HOT! i'm totally falling in love with kyuhyun! he is sooo *speechless* i want to see their performance soon! i love the mv, but i could've been better without that kunti jerksicka! but overall they are all great~ and i love the soung even though it's chinese. *i don't really like the language* but it's reaaaaly worth to see!

Label: fandom